The Question
I didn't sleep that night. By morning I'd rehearsed a dozen ways to ask and discarded every one of them for sounding either too gentle or too much like an accusation. In the end I just walked into his room, sat down without my usual small talk, and set the locket on his blanket between us.
"Tell me the truth," I said. "Are you my grandfather?"
He didn't flinch. Didn't look surprised at all, which somehow frightened me more than if he had.
"I knew the day you introduced yourself," he said. "Calder. Your mother's married name — I recognized it off a card she sent thirty years back, the last one I ever got from her. And then you had her exact eyes. I'm an old man, June, not a stupid one."
"Then why didn't you say something?"
"Because I didn't know if you'd still come back if I did." His voice cracked on the last word. "You weren't obligated to me. Nobody was. And for the first time in thirty years, somebody was choosing to sit with me, and I was terrified that the second you knew the truth, it would stop being a choice."
"Arthur—"
"There's a letter," he said quickly, urgently, like he'd been waiting for the exact moment his courage would hold long enough. "Already written. In my things. For after. Promise me you'll read it when it's time, and not one day before."
"Nothing's happening to you today."
"Promise me anyway."
I promised, my throat too tight to say more than the word itself, and he closed his eyes like a weight had finally lifted off him after thirty years of carrying it alone.
Then the monitor beside his bed began to beep — slow, then slower — and a nurse I didn't recognize burst through the door already calling for the doctor.