A Few Words
The paper in Marlowe's hands trembled hard enough that Callum could see it shake from twenty feet away, even in the low light. She had to stand on a small step stool someone had set behind the podium just for her, and when she leaned toward the microphone her voice came out smaller than the room, smaller than she was, and every single candle seemed to hold its breath along with her.
"Hi, Daddy," she started, and a sound rippled through the crowd, soft and pained, the sound of two hundred people bracing themselves for someone else's grief. "I know you can't really hear this. Mom says it's more for us than for you. But I wanted to say it anyway."
Callum's hand found the wall behind him and pressed flat against it, the only thing keeping him upright.
"I've been trying to be brave," Marlowe went on, "because you always said being brave doesn't mean not being scared, it just means doing the thing anyway. So I'm doing the thing. I'm just — I miss you so much it feels like a hole, and I don't know how to—"
She stopped. Not because she'd lost her place. Because somewhere in the dark at the side of the gymnasium, a shape had detached itself from the wall and started walking toward the light — a tall shape in travel-worn civilian clothes with a soldier's unmistakable bearing, moving up the side aisle in full view now, no longer hidden, no longer careful.
A woman two rows from the front noticed first. Her hand flew up, covering her mouth, and the small strangled sound she made turned the head of the person beside her, and then the next, a ripple of turning heads spreading backward and sideways through the crowd like wind moving through wheat, murmurs rising, someone's chair scraping hard against the gym floor.
Marlowe, still frozen at the microphone with her letter forgotten in her hand, followed two hundred pairs of eyes turning as one toward the side aisle — toward him — and her mouth opened around a word that wouldn't quite come out yet.