Five Years
I didn't sleep that night, and neither did Odalys, and around one in the morning we ended up back at the table with all forty-some notebooks spread out, hunting for every entry with a 6 on it.
There were more than I wanted there to be.
The earliest one was from almost five years back, not long after Holt and Juniper moved in — 6 Larkspur, new family, girl maybe 4, shy but sweet, no mother mentioned, will keep an eye. Then nothing for a year. Then, eighteen months ago, entries started again, sparser at first, then closer together as the months went on. A scraped knee explained two different ways on two different Sundays. A long sleeve in July. A birthday where Juniper, turning nine, didn't want the candles lit because "loud things are bad right now," a phrase Cornelia had underlined twice.
And twice — twice — a call made. The first time, eleven months ago: Called. Said they'd check. Nothing seemed different after. The second time, four months ago, longer, more careful, like she'd learned exactly what words got taken seriously: Called again, gave specifics this time. Was told a caseworker visited, house seemed fine, case closed. J. still flinches at the door.
Case closed.
I read that line maybe six times, feeling something in my chest go hard and useless at once, because what was I supposed to do with a dead woman's five-year paper trail and a system that had already looked and moved on.
"We have to call again," Odalys said.
"With what? A dead woman's diary?"
"With everything she wrote down. Dates. Specifics. A pattern nobody else had, because nobody else was watching for five straight years." She was already reaching for her phone, hands not quite steady, and then she stopped, looking at the last page again, at will call Monday, can't wait longer than that, written in handwriting none of us would ever see finish its sentence.
"She knew something was getting worse," Odalys said quietly. "Right before she died. And she ran out of Mondays."
I looked out our kitchen window, down the dark street toward the Thorne house, where every light was on at one in the morning, and thought: so did we, apparently, because a curtain moved, and someone was standing at the glass, looking back.