Watching Back
I told myself it was nothing. Insomnia, a porch light, a trick of a curtain in wind that wasn't actually blowing that hard. I told myself that for exactly as long as it took Odalys to call the same number Cornelia had called twice before, read off five years of dates in a voice that didn't shake until the very end, and hang up to a promise that someone would "assess the situation this week."
This week. Cornelia's notebooks were full of this-week promises that had gone nowhere.
So I did the thing I'm not proud of and also don't regret: I started watching the house myself, the ordinary way, the way you can watch a street without anyone noticing you're doing it — from the mailbox, from the driveway, from the exact window Cornelia must have used for five years, except she'd had a legitimate reason to be at that door every single Sunday and I had none.
Wednesday, school pickup. Juniper came out last, hood up despite the heat, arms crossed tight over her ribs in a way that had nothing to do with cold. She flinched — actually flinched, a full-body flinch — when another kid's backpack swung too close, and for half a second before she caught herself, she looked like she expected to be hit.
I must have been staring, because Holt was suddenly beside his car, watching me watch his daughter.
"Something I can help you with, Gideon?"
His voice was pleasant. His eyes weren't.
"Just saying hi to Juniper," I said, which wasn't remotely what I'd been doing, and we both knew it.
"She's shy," he said. "Doesn't like attention." A hand landed on Juniper's shoulder — not hard, not visibly anything, and she went rigid under it anyway, the way a dog goes rigid before a storm it can smell before you can. "We should get home."
He didn't move toward his own car. He stood there until Odalys pulled up for Birdie and the lot cleared out around us, until it was just the two of us and our kids, and then he said, quiet enough that only I could hear it:
"Cornelia used to look at me like that too. Funny how that worked out for her."
Then he smiled, took his daughter's hand, and walked away, and I stood in that parking lot for a full minute before I could make my legs move.