Two Fingers, Four Beats
Knox went to the door first, knocked, said Micah's name soft and low, the kind of gentle Gus hadn't known his voice could do. Nothing. Not a shuffle, not a breath, not the small sounds of a kid pretending not to be there.
"Micah, it's me. It's Knox." A pause. "You don't have to say anything. I just want to know you're okay."
Silence answered him the way it had answered everyone else for three days.
Gus stood back, watching, his own heart hammering so hard it felt louder than anything in the hallway. He thought about every time someone had waited for him to finish a sentence — impatient, or kind, it hadn't always mattered which, because either way the waiting itself had a sound.
He thought about the tapping.
He knelt down by the door, next to Knox, and instead of speaking, he lifted two fingers and tapped against the wood. Tap-tap. Tap-tap. Slow. Steady. The exact rhythm Knox had given him over a lunch counter three weeks ago without either of them knowing what it would end up meaning.
Knox's head turned sharply, but he didn't stop Gus. He just watched.
Nothing happened for four long seconds.
Then, faint, muffled by wood and distance — tap-tap. Tap-tap. Back.
Gus's breath caught. He tapped again, and the door answered again, and something loosened in his chest that had nothing to do with his own stutter for the first time in his life.
"Micah," Gus said, and his voice shook and stumbled the way it always did, and he let it, didn't fight it, didn't hide it. "It's okay to talk s-slow. I talk slow too. Knox w-waits for me. He'll wait for you."
The lock clicked.
The door opened two inches, then four, and a small face looked out — pale, red-eyed, sleeves pulled down over his hands the way Gus pulled his own sleeves down when the world felt too loud. Micah looked at Gus first, like he recognized something in him before he even understood what it was, then past him to Knox.
His mouth opened. Nothing came out at first — just breath, just effort, the shape of a word with no sound behind it yet.
Then, broken and slow, quieter than a whisper but unmistakably there:
"K-Knox—"
Ilsa made a sound behind them like she'd been holding her breath for three days and had finally been allowed to let it go.